Because in order to, you know, in order to develop all these qualities, you need to start a meditation.
Nowadays there’s so many commercialized meditations, you know? Like an example, you listen to a very peaceful music, you know, or going to an expensive spa, and listen to a very expensive headphone and the very, you know, a beautiful, or appeared to be peaceful music and then people believe that they are in the state of meditation. The reality is they are in a complete chaos. That’s the reality. They have the imagination of themselves that “Ah, I’m in the state of meditation” but they are not even close to that, you know?
So having the right awareness is very important. Many people when they are distracted they are told to “concentrate!”. “Concentrating” and “awareness” is two different things; it’s not the same, you know?
When you concentrate, you have a very extreme mindset and judgmental mindset. When you have a awareness you, you are absent from the judgmental mindset but rather simply witnessing everything. You are gentle and subtle and clear at the same time, you know? And having that kind of a qualities of awareness, so called awareness, is very important, which is not a concentration. And concentration requires a lot of energy, lot of paranoia and energy, you know?
So therefore the first step is not to make a mistake between “what is the meaning of concentration” and “what is the meaning of simply awareness”, you know?
Like an example, in Taranatha’s teachings, Taranatha’s teaching and the Niguma’s Mahamudra’s teaching, it says that, when you, you know, when you breathe out, you know, through your nose three times and you meditate, simply, you know, without, with no opinion, you know, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out, breathe in and breathe out. And along with it, along with that state of mind, without any opinion, just simply letting your mind as the feather falling on the table, without any weight but simply exist, you know? Creating that kind of state of mind.
And then of course in few seconds you see the projection of thought. When you see the projection of thought, you simply look directly to the projection of thought without any judgment, without any positive judgment, without any negative judgment, simply look. Look. Look. Look. And then in that very moment that so called, your perception of the, the projection of thought that you believe that it was there will dissolve by itself.
And you don’t have to search for it, you don’t have to look for it, you just letting it be. And then bring that very state of clarity more to the center and then again meditate and breathe out, breathe in, breathe out, breathe in and breathe out. And then along with it and then your mind and awareness along with it.
When you are breathing out, don’t think about “How many numbers I have to tell to other people that I have done it, I’m a good practitioner and more advanced”, just, stop it, you know?
When you are breathing out, you know, your mind, your awareness of the mind, not a concentration, your awareness of the mind with a non-judgmental perception of your mind, simply witnessing along with it, when you’re breathing out. And when you’re breathing in, just as that. Do not count!
Counting is a dangerous trap for your ego and for your pride. Do not count, you know? Because the more you count then you become little bit like a Buddhist practitioner with a Swiss bank account, you know? [Ha Ha] you know, “I have this much, I have done this much!” then you become ego trip, you know? That is dangerous.
If you are very, very, very, very lazy practitioner then I have no choice but to give you the rules of “How many times you have to accumulate”, you know? If you look at the, all the great masters, you know, in the history, none of them got enlightened because due to counting, you know? You never hear them “I did this much mantra, I, I chant that much mantra therefore in that very moment I got enlightened”. They didn’t. They just go through so much struggle, so much suffering and renunciation and awareness and they continue that journey. And then over the time they became enlightened.
Like a Milarepa, you know? So that is a great historical figure and that is a great example, that he became equal to the Mahasiddha of India, you know? That, that’s how he was praised, you know, at the end, not beginning, at the end, you know?. [Ha Ha]
So, so therefore coming back to the awareness, so when you are breathing out and then simply be awareness in your state of mind, when you breathe out. And when you breathe in, simply that, you know? Don’t have the idea of “I have to be better or this is it or this is not or”, none of that. If you have your, your mind is intact, that’s enough. Be satisfied with that. Be content with that. Then when you’re breathing out, simply your mind along with it. When you’re breathing in, simply your mind along with it, you know? It can be very soothing, gentle, mindful without any sensation of strength, you know, simply, you know, some sort of detachment level, some sort of a detachment of state of mind, you know? Without any expectation, you know? That sort of quality of mind has to be developed and can develop. That’s number one.
The Great Way with Kyabje Kalu Rinpoche (37′ 06″)
Zoom Meeting – November 24, 2021
To be continued …