I don’t have a method to make you motivated unless you choose to see it, of the existence of the suffering, the cycle of the suffering, the reality of the suffering.
When you come to the conclusion, not just intellectually, but truly from the bottom of the heart, not just once, not just twice, but many, many, many, many times, not trying, not, not being emotionally unstable, but simply understanding of “what is the really thought of the suffering, what is the true effect of the suffering, into oneself, and to others”.
The more conclusive understanding you have, the genuine motivation will come by itself. So don’t waste your time telling yourself that “I don’t have a motivation”, if you don’t have a motivation don’t feel bad about it. It’s absolutely fine. It’s absolutely fine. If you don’t have a motivation then reflect the reality of the suffering, the reality of the samsara as the Buddha did.
The Buddha he did, you know, the reflection of the samsara, before he left the palace. As you are the follower of the Buddha, you can reflect, not vast like that. We don’t have an entourage, an army, castles and soldiers and concubine at all these things. You don’t have that.
In order to examine the reality of the suffering, you have to examine something in between. If you try to examine something very dear to you, as an example of the attachment, you will surely fall and fail to overcome that.
So in order to overcome the examination of the reality of the suffering, you must practice with your mind, examining the very existence of the suffering. It may be not overwhelming but something in between. Something moderate, that has to be moderate. Once you have a moderate understanding of the middle ground suffering. Not something like “you have lost your parents, or you have lost your loved ones” and then saying that “ah, now that’s the reality of the suffering, examine that! that’s samsara”.
I don’t think anybody can have that capacity to examine that sort of overwhelming suffering instantly right away. We can examine that suffering that we have lost, that heartbroken, that left alone, that sort of a sensation, we can overcome that eventually. But in the beginning, the way we have to examine the reality of the suffering is much as important as how we examine the practice itself. So that is very important. We have to be careful how we examine our perception of the reality of the suffering. Something more moderate, bit by bit.
On the top of that, as you continue with the practice, and then eventually over the time, that sense of courage, that sense of willingness, that sense of, the drive from the bottom of your heart, that “I want to practice until the last breath of my life”, that sense of attitude, that sense of motivation, that sense of desire will develop over the time.
Transforming Our Ordinary Emotion to Clarity by Kyabje Kalu Rinpoche
Hawaiï Association of International Buddhists – Saturday, Feb 19, 2022 (23′ 56”)
To be continued …